If you’re doubting everything and are not sure you’re on the right path…

One night a few months ago, I woke up in the middle of the night questioning everything. What is my purpose right now? Are the choices I’ve made really leading me down my desired personal and professional paths? I’d never felt so isolated and at a loss for answers.

Not wanting to disturb my husband’s sleep, I went to the living room couch with my phone for a distraction from these thoughts that disturbed me at such a late hour. I was scrolling though a new age website about angels and a message with a green background appeared that said “You are a healer.” Researching health and wellness has been a pastime for years, but more often than not, the loved ones I tried to help weren’t interested; my attempts at intervention were unsuccessful. Moreover, I hadn’t even been able to solve one of my own issues despite years of trying. I started to wonder if I was mistaken about the talents and knowledge I thought I possessed.

Thoroughly annoyed at the green message about healing that popped up on my screen, I yelled out to the universe: “Yeah, right. Prove it!” But then I decided to try something new; although I often pray, I never directly asked God to be in my life. I said out loud, “Please God, come into my life. Let me know that you’re listening and give me a sign.” Exhausted by this dark night of the soul, I finally surrendered my destiny to God and fell into a deep sleep.

The next morning, I received an unexpected phone call from a cousin who urgently wanted my advice on natural approaches to his health problem. “You’re the only one I trust with this sort of stuff,” he said. I couldn’t believe what I was hearing; it couldn’t be that my request for God’s guidance the night before was actually being answered, right?

As I wrapped up the long discussion with my cousin about his healing options, as if moved by divine inspiration, he abruptly changed the subject and said, “Maybe there’s another reason I’m calling aside from my health issue. I was overcome with a strong feeling that I should contact you.” He added, “Maybe God is using my health problem to make me call, but he really wants you to know that he loves you and is looking out for you.”  Speechless, I quickly ended the conversation and spent the rest of the day in gratitude for this miracle.

During the next few days, I received more confirmation that God really was answering my call for guidance. Out of the blue, I'd run into neighbors and acquaintances who “happened” to mention chronic health problems for which I just "happened" to have solutions.  Messages from new clients asking for advice started pouring into my inbox. Without any knowledge of what I do aside from creating skincare products, it was rather odd that strangers were asking me about vitamins, supplements and dietary choices. Some requested that I create special formulas to heal specific skin problems. One person even wrote in capital letters, “PLEASE HELP ME.” Nothing like this ever happened before. At this point, there was no doubt that I was being guided to continue pursuing my interest in health and wellness. 

Remember that personal health problem I mentioned? A few weeks after that difficult night I surrendered control to God, I found out that I was pregnant after five years of countless alternative and traditional protocols!

I have no doubt that my new doctor contributed to this outcome, but when I gave up control and surrendered to God, everything came together in a matter of days.

Turning to God may not sound modern and trendy. It might sound way cooler to credit my success to crystals, mantras, Energy Medicine, Kundalini Yoga, meditation, The Law of Attraction, Applied Kinesiology, Craniosacral Therapy, vitamins, acupuncture, cupping, Reiki, Mayan Massage, Palo Santo, Tibetan Bells, Floatation Therapy, aromatherapy, essential oils, Chinese herbs, Indian herbs, American herbs, Feng Shui or the miracles of modern medicine. There is a place for all of these healing tools and modalities and yes, I tried every single one of them.

The lesson I learned is that these gifts are created for us by God, but are not meant to replace God’s power. If you’re going through a time of confusion, consider directly connecting to the source. Just surrender, give your problems to God and ask Him to come into your life. I’d love to know what happens next.